Why I’m Not An “Ex-Christian”

by Lenna

Okay, technically I am an “ex-Christian,” but I certainly don’t identify that way.

There is an “ex-Muslim” whose story is circulating, demonizing Islam and Muslims, and that is what has got me thinking about my own status as a Muslim who left Christianity.

Being an “ex-Muslim” is a great option for attention seekers, especially in the present climate, where offering reasons to hate Muslims is a popular (and possibly lucrative) gambit. Personally even if the climate were ripe for “ex-Christian” testimony, you would not find me on the circuit, sharing my story and expecting people to feel sorry for me.

4 Reasons

First of all, I’m suspicious of people who insist on identifying as what they’re not.

Fixating on what they left behind, instead of where they want to go. What would you think of someone who, instead of saying, “I’m an adult,” proclaimed, “I’m an ex-child” and then went on to tell you of his or her childhood trauma?

Maybe that person did have a traumatic childhood, and that’s sad. But what’s the point of wallowing in whatever bad experiences you’ve had and making it part of your personal identity? I would feel bad for such a person, but would also view this fixation on the past as a sign of possible mental illness!

It’s not as if that person’s experience is an indictment of childhood anyway, since many of us have had happy childhoods. Similarly, one person’s bad experience as a Muslim (or dislike of Islam) isn’t an indictment of Islam or the Muslim community as a whole.

Second, there’s nothing unique about having some difficulties when you leave behind your faith.

Some families accept this more graciously than others, but it’s not as if Muslims are alone in sometimes feeling very hurt or angry when their child departs from what’s sacred to them.

In fact I once had a coworker who left the Jehovah’s Witnesses. When you do that, you become a “disfellowshipped apostate,” he told me, which means you are shunned and cut off by the entire community, including your own family (if they are observant JWs). For a time, he did identify as an “ex-JW” and was in a support group for others who had also left.

But after some time, he moved on! He isn’t years later identifying as what he left behind, and spending his time denigrating those who are still JWs. He’s now an atheist, though open minded enough to consider various ideas. He’s moved on!

As for me, my family was mixed on my conversion to Islam. Some of them are none too thrilled and have made that known.

At one family gathering, one of cousin’s said in front of everyone that I should “take off that hood” and find a “proper” (read Christian) husband. On another occasion, that same cousin decided to confront me on the issue of terrorism, as if I endorse violence (which I DO NOT). Some of my other relatives defended me and Muslims more generally, while I remained silent, not wanting to further stir the pot.

Other relatives continue to invite me to church, sometimes perhaps just to keep them company, but in other cases, to lead me back to the “correct” path.

Am I complaining about this? No!

It’s just part of my experience. When I was a child, we learned in Sunday school about how early Christians were persecuted, and were sometimes tortured and killed. A miffed relative here and there hardly amounts to “persecution”!

I love my family, and I’m sad if my decision makes them feel hurt or angry, or if they have a hard time understanding. I’m not going to deepen and widen the rift by demonizing them and their faith to everyone I can find who will listen!

I’m too busy trying to build a bridge to all of them, through love, patience and mutual understanding.

Third, I don’t “hate” Christianity, nor do I resent the Christian community.

I do sometimes explain some of the problems I had with Christian doctrine, but I will also tell you what I love about Christianity, and how that I appreciate the way it has shaped my childhood experience and worldview.

In fact, I defend Christians against what I see as unfair criticism, even though a good share of them react to me with hostility. I went to a disqus channel once to defend Christians against a militant atheist, and the Christian the channel belongs to allowed the atheist to stay but kicked me off (after I made just ONE comment) because she said they don’t want people there who are “Muslim or Islamic or whatever.”


I’m still going to defend Christians against what I feel is unfair criticism. I spoke up for Christianity in my own way just yesterday .

In fact, it was only AFTER I converted to Islam that I gained the strong appreciation for Christianity I have today. The doctrine makes more sense to me through an Islamic lens than it ever did from a Christian or agnostic perspective. Of course we have differences of opinion, especially regarding matters such as the trinity, but that isn’t a reason to go around vilifying Christians!

If you’re an “ex-Muslim” who’s had a bad experience, I’m sorry, but you’re not the only person in the world who’s had a bad experience. Your bad experience is yours, and there is no reason why you have to cast a shadow over all of us, including your own family and community.

Fourth (and finally), I see an element of self hatred in this “ex-something” identification as well.

I grew up in the American heartland, beneath the Midwest stars and my Christian mother’s twinkling eyes. I grew up loving Jesus..and pop tarts and hot dogs…and Hank and Willie and Waylon. 🙂

This is part of who I am, and I’m not going to disavow or denigrate the people, places and ideas that shaped me, not matter where I go from here.

So “ex-Muslims” (and ex-WhateverElse), please stop nursing your grudge, and join me in moving on to what’s next. You’ll be happier, and so will everyone else.

If you’d like to join a discussion regarding this article, please visit the original post on my disqus channel, The Golden Rule.


  1. this is a stupid blog piece you hypocrite
    you can easily leave christianity, the pope doesn’t call for you to be killed, the OIC conturies have blsphey as a sin,

    fucking hypocrite, islam has a death penalty for elaving islam,

    you tucking cunt, abusing the freedom of the xtian world,
    go give your fucking pussy to some muslim fucker, who wouldn’t let his sister convert to xtitianyt

    here is a questions, would the man a cheap slut like you married, let his sister convert to judaism? to christianity? go fuck yourself y ou fucking whore


  2. desperate for sex christian slut, whore of a muslim man

    i bet your husband won’t let his sister convert to christianity and marry a christian man, you stupid fucking low down bitch


  3. there would be no need for ex muslims to call themselves ex muslism if islam freely allowed muslims to leave islam. that is why atheism is spreding in the muslim world.

    islam can’t last without the death penalty to stop muslims leaving,

    only sluts like you who need a muslim dick convert to islam,


    1. If you REALLY believed Muslims would come after your for leaving Islam, the LAST thing you’d want to call yourself is an “EX-MUSLIM.” That would be stupid, since it would make you a target. Except that in reality no one is after you.

      If you really are an “ex-Muslim,” I can assure you most of us are quite pleased you’ve left the fold.


  4. go fuck off to a muslim country you whore,

    go there, and then say you leave islam, then say you want to marry christian man, fucking bich


  5. the only reason i call myself ex muslim is because islam doens’t allow muslims to leave. give freedom of religion like christianty does,k

    that is the reason , you stupid fucking peabraim

    i would have no need to identify as ex muslim if islam allowed people to convert to other religons,

    go fuck off to any muslim countyr, then leave islam. FUCK OFF



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